Meeting C at the gym tonight. We'll see how that goes. I am supposed to meet him after my two hour dance rehearsal.

I miss dancing as much as I was before when I was in the last show. That involved a major amount of dance, and I was having a blast learning it and doing it. I would love to take tap again, more "full time" once I get the money situation under control, because that was a fantastic cardio workout.

I wish I could get my head on straight about men and relationships. I wish I didn't suck so badly at them or figure anyone who isn't C isn't right for me. I am getting myself completely screwed up because of it.

And now I am humiliated. I still haven't learned everything here yet, and I am still screwing things up. I am figuring it out little by little, but I am embarrassed to admit that I am still messing up stupid little things. It pretty much makes me feel like a moron. I will figure it out, I know I will, but seriously, I feel so stupid for trying to get this, and not being able to. I feel dumb that AB came in here and corrected me on it. I am trying. I really am.